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The True Power Of The Sun by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

My Distorted Looking Glass by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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My Distorted Looking Glass

~My Distorted Looking Glass~ My distorted looking glass accidentally violated by eager hands. Ecstasy, a shot of whiskey, and a car crash. Mourning the golden erotic senses from his face Scarred palms reflect my dissection and my paper heart crumbles to dust. Smothering in veils of obscurity under dirty white lights A paradise of vowelized speech by the barrel of neglected plans The fame of early a.m. ramblings bend and break my self worth Long necked bottles and everlasting addictions fluidize your thoughts causing your imagination to make mistakes in anger Love is a beautiful torture The most beautiful tune is when you're faced wi

Tin Roof Rag Doll by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Tin Roof Rag Doll

~Tin Roof Rag Doll~ His chest leads to another world, where in the focus amidst the fog the same angels that cast him down inhale the prayers of death and echo his failed purpose of all that he attempted. He’s trapped beneath the webbed ice of filth and rage. Where he embraces the pain of predictable situations, And gnaws at the two red lights that seize the night. Out of the black abyss of porcelain termites, Came a tragic heroine, Holding her mangled heart, In her scar infested hands. The look of a demon, But the eyes of a fallen angel. Her wings of fire, a scratch pad for his inner salvation, sculpting her gray sky

Martyred Bruising's by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Martyred Bruising's

~Martyred Bruising's~ Standing here looking in your eyes The abomination that gives truth to my insatiable addictions. My mutilated inscription forcing me to face the blood stained fates. My heart a fun house mirror Smothering the knowledge of the slayed To hide my insomnia of seduction. Closing my eyes to find the flaw in my perfection Injected, swallowed, given, A taste of intervention. My description engraved with your pleas and the pulse exists off self hatred and merciless mortification's Ivory veins forcing self forgiveness from the relentless judgment of trembling caresses and smothering sighs Hiding the intonations of ho

Your Serated Secret by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Your Serated Secret

~Your Serated Secret~ The tears pour from my eyes Like the water from Niagara Falls Pours into the massive oblivion below it It's time again. As I gently pull the razor from it's box I look at my reflection What a distorted and fucked up monster Love is a rare and beautiful element And looking at me I'll NEVER have it I press the razor to my skin The chill excites my body Intoxicatingly thrills my mind I want to carve until there's nothing left Relief from this stress I'm a sugarcoated zombie The beast of a pathological liar A question of purple mattress daggers and heaven's acidic poisons Barbed wire clottings and idolart

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The True Power Of The Sun by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

My Distorted Looking Glass by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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My Distorted Looking Glass

Beautiful Mistake by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Beautiful Mistake

~Beautiful Mistake~ Finger on the trigger. Picture in my hand. I know you didn’t love him, So you don’t understand. I’m not needing your approval, I know you’ll be okay. Just because you love somebody, Doesn’t make them stay. Love can give. Love can take. He’s my beautiful mistake. I learned to live. I learned to love. I learned sorry’s just not enough. He learned to take. He learned to lie. He stole my life, One kiss at a time. So with my finger on the trigger, His picture in my hand. I used the balls he never had, And took the final stand. No I’m sorry. No goodbye. Just a fro

My Treacherous Game by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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My Treacherous Game

~My Treacherous Game~ I possess a love with endless danger. I’m a monster. I fabricate loves and beautiful ideas, All my way of hiding from my secret fears. I’ve been taught what to say. So please run away. I hurt everything I touch! Please don’t tell me your name, Don’t let me see your face. I don’t want you to be a pawn, In my treacherous game. Why don’t you listen? Stop walking my way! I keep trying and trying. Let me push you away. You refuse to leave. I’m not strong enough to fight it. I need you in my web. I hope you can survive it. Become my new plan. My power. My gain. I tho

Buried Love by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Buried Love

~Buried Love~ My heart bleeds in silence, The failures of my secret dreams. As I stalk the star- filled night, Searching for a reprieve, I find myself an eternal slave, To desperation and defeat. Our buried love. Rotting in your ancient thoughts. I live only because I fear, Being your repelled delusion. The pink in my cheeks, From where you made me blush. The twinkle in my eye. The light and warmth of my smile. All forbidden pigments of this thing called love…… Bitterness and betrayal, Have become permanent features, On my face. I worship you! My dictator with no power. Inflict on me the pain, Of our nonexisten

Fly by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Fly

~Fly~ "This is for BBW"...dont forget i <3 you! A song left unwritten. A story never told. Something old and faded, But when it shines it's priceless gold. An unplanned blessing. An unanswered prayer. The lies behind a mask, Hiding a blank stare. A rumor unresolved, Afraid he'll never be loved at all. So scared to sing, But when he spreads his wings. He's the guy you meet, Who leaves you speechless. A beautiful portrait painted, From beautifully broken pieces. Pain and struggle etched in his soul searing eyes. Oh but when he spreads his wings and flys. It's beauty like you imagine Heaven, But a sin that

It by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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It

~It~ Sometimes I wish to sleep and never wake Because what I do to myself is too much to take I get up everyday to it and pretend I know if I don’t stop it’ll kill me in the end Eleven years it still controls me I gave up and now it owns me I’ve never gotten to be a normal kid Because of the horrible things I did Every time I try to quit I let myself run back to it The struggle to breathe I fall to my knees I beg God to take it away I beg him please Tighter and tighter the painful force grows The damage The pain Nobody knows The pills The doctors Unmentionable things It’s become my lifestyle Can it

When Why and How Long? by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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When Why and How Long?

When, Why, And How Long? When is enough, enough? How long Do you wait For something that’s never going to be yours Again How long do you live out Those memories And what was supposed to be or What could have been Why do we thrive on Those maybe that we’ve been lied Not promised and That we in fact created ourselves Why do we want Someone who did us wrong Because love Is blind maybe But is love really blind or Do we use that excuse To overlook the flaws that We don’t see We have just been told That are there Why do we let them Define who we are Why were they our voice and Why now that they’re

The Shadow Of The Blunt by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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The Shadow Of The Blunt

The Shadow Of The Blunt No matter how far I run The truth cannot be lost The fates and their twisted humor Taunt me with the constant reminder That I’m a part of you You blinded so many But I see through your distorted puns You words are the acid that devours the very essence of these blinded peoples souls Dad is a word that you could NEVER define Your deliberate conspiracy to steal what is rightfully mine My lair of feeble consumed by pain My battle with the foolish flicker of the candle that can never burn out I'll relinquish the bullet engraved with your name The trigger the cure for cancer The pen to the paper I'd rev

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My Treacherous Game by xxuglyducklingxx, literature

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Well...there's not much to say about me. I LOVE LOVE LOVE Darren Hayes. I love to sing and write my own music. I love to think...but fear my thoughts.If that makes any sense at all. I cannot dance. I hate confrontation. I'm teriified of aliens and I love to read.

Oh and lets not forget the most important thing of all...my vampire piggies that fart chocolate eating tellitubbies are going to take over the world. MU HAW HAW HAW -lol-

Current Residence: somewhere in a house in a place
deviantWEAR sizing preference: Just to clear things up...there shall be no sizing..too many complications and it ends in 'ing&
Print preference: Depends on what it is that we are printing.
Favourite genre of music: anything Darren Hayes----rock
Favourite photographer: I like pictures dont get me wrong but the simplicity of it annoys me, i prefer sketching. so none.
Favourite style of art: metaphorical.......
Operating System: No one. Nothing. I prefer to be free.
MP3 player of choice: Urgh, as long as it has good music on it i could hoenstly care less.
Shell of choice: Something that no one else would like because they cant appreciate it's beauty.
Wallpaper of choice: Fairies.
Skin of choice: His...</3
Favourite cartoon character: IDK......spongebob
Personal Quote: The best things in life are unseen thats why we kiss with our eyes closed

Favourite Visual Artist

Don't have one....except maybe a few of my friends....

Favourite Movies

Titantic, Phantom of the Opera, && Cruel Intentions

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Darren Hayes.....Savage Garden.

Favourite Writers

Zach, Shakespeare.......

Favourite Games

Scrabble

Favourite Gaming Platform

idk..i love platform shoes though =P

Tools of the Trade

D:!!!!!!!!

Other Interests

writing, reading, singing, and thinking

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xxuglyducklingxx

Mar 17, 2009

~Sing To Me~

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Alright, I dont care if no one reads it...I dont care if everyone does. I'm going to start posting songs daily that inspire me, or that I love...or that are just good songs. And if you dont like it leave =P ~Sing To Me~ You step behind a curtain In a moment you were gone Nothing's ever certain And it's hard to carry on This is not what we planned And I know its hard to understand But if this isn't what you want then If this isn't what you need pry my fingers from your hand And maybe it's just meant to be Maybe you'll find a way to haunt me Come back and sing a melody to me Maybe we're just lost at sea Maybe I'm holding on to dri

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Mar 15, 2009

~KERSPLAT~

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♥♥The decadence of giving in to desire creates such empathy within. looking for love in spiritual faces blind to the art of fabrication~!♥♥...If only you'd run to me, if only you'd come to me, if only youd relax upon your rules and dare to be loves fool..♥♥ again something i felt the need to share

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Mar 15, 2009

~How Many~

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"How many days am I gonna regret you? How many nights until I forget you? Have I been wasting all those years Held down by tears? How many dreams have i left dseserted? Have I een buried in the dirt Held down by this hurt And how many lows did i let you highjack? How did I end up lyihng here?" again random idea to post it someone out there needs it hope you find it =)